Monday, September 20, 2010


Ballon With Perspective

Lately, I've been having trouble sleeping.  Falling asleep doesn't seem to be the issue.  It's the early hours of the morning that have been causing me some stir.  For whatever reason,  I have a difficult time putting it all in perspective.  I toss and turn until I can't sleep any more.

Transitioning from the reliance of a corporate paycheck to not knowing when I will see the next paycheck is not very comforting.  It definitely is something that I am not accustomed to.  I've never just lived in the moment and not worried about anything.  It's not my nature.  I am a planner.

Life throws us events that we cannot plan like an unanticipated curve ball.  The wrong pitch comes at us and we strike out.  At least that's how we perceive it.  Is it really the wrong pitch or just that we weren't prepared for it?

Today is one of those days that I really need to change my perspective.  It's all R&D, I've not made any grave mistakes.  Relying on my skills to survive is something that I've become unfamiliar with.  This time there's no profit sharing and no 401K's.  It all rides on my shoulders. The doubts creep in and so does the fear.

Got several things on my mind today.  Today, I need to sell some pictures to clear my ahead and restore my self-confidence.  Today, I have to target my new sales effort for the graphics company that I am representing.   Today, I have to pick up that heavy phone and just try.   Don't know what pitch will be coming at me.  I know I need to be ready.

As I sit here this morning, I pause and think about the hardest part of exercising.  You and I both know that the hardest part is simply putting on your shoes to get going.  Today, I need to put it all in perspective and lace up my shoes.  Care to join me?

1 comment:

  1. I share your angst Al. Funny thing though, I don't mind missing and getting called strikes on pitches I can see. Then I know I gave it me all. It's those invisible pitches where you have no idea what to expect or when it may even cross the plate that present the challenge.

    I doubt you would be ill prepared for a game you knew you were playing would it be fair. How can we ever be fully prepared for something we didn't see. It's all about communication and it takes two for it to be effective.

    Being in the now, the moment ... speaking personally, it is so much easier to be there when you aren't worried about financing or have a life preserver you can tap into. Still, though not easy, when found and embraced, regardless when they happen ... are truly joyous.

    My best wishes out to you Al, and speed and success on your quest.


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